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The Inner Critic

Credit: @pro321

I’m no stranger to criticism in general. I get it from everybody–partners, my dad, a manager. Criticism is inevitable. And while it hurts to get feedback on your hard work as being not up to snuff, it’s easy to do a better job next time.

But the most harmful criticism is from ourselves. The inner critic. It makes us lack confidence and feel like we can’t do anything right, and the inner critic can magnify others’ criticism about us, making us feel like we deserve to be talked down to, or get that terrible mark on a project at work.

For me, my inner critic likes to get at me for everything, from cooking to job performance. Take last night when I cooked spaghetti and turkey meatballs for my boyfriend’s mom and brother. When my boyfriend asked how the food was (in particular, the spaghetti), his brother replied with, “It’s okay.” (He used to be a cook, which I was informed of only last night!! Imagine how anxious I felt lol.)

However, I agreed with his two word evaluation.

It was simple spaghetti with marinara sauce, which everyone should be able to make no problem. But I felt like it wasn’t the best.

Now the turkey meatballs. While the mom and brother liked them, I thought that they were only making me feel good. I could’ve made those better too.

Luckily, I’ve been keeping a recipe notebook, which I use to write out what I make, my rating of the food on a 5 scale, why I rated it the number I did (with positives about the dish), and notes for what to do next time. You can bet that I wrote about the turkey meatballs!!

I know that I shouldn’t be hard on myself, since it was my first time making the meatballs and making food for people outside of my family and boyfriend. (I’ve made it a weekly ritual to bake a snack for my boyfriend’s friends and us when we go over for games on Saturday nights.)

I also think that my baking goods don’t go over well with his friends, but they eat them. But, I must say that the brownies I made this past Saturday were really good!! (See, being positive here).

I’m trying to be more kind to myself. Telling myself that I’m doing a good job, or that I only need to practice more. However, it’s a long road and it’s easy to get the inner critic going though. But it’s a process to feel more confident.

What do you do to silence your inner critic and be more gentle with yourself? Let me know in the comments!

Why I Stressed About Valentine’s Day

Remember when I mentioned that my boyfriend deserved to be pampered on Valentine’s Day because of what he did on Saturday?

Well, here’s the story behind that…

On Saturday, January 30th, I had a uterine polyp removed. It was the first surgery I’ve had as an adult, and I was happy that I could have one person stay with me prior to the procedure. A few days before I told my boyfriend that I wasn’t going to sleep over Friday because I had to be at the hospital at 6:30 A.M. Saturday.

He said that he’d take me…and wait with me!!

He waited with me until my surgery time, 8:30 A.M.

He even let me take one of his Eeyore plushies to keep me company during surgery (which, unfortunately, had to be left outside of the OR so he wouldn’t be accidentally thrown out when my bed sheets were collected and taken to laundry). If Eeyore had gone missing my boyfriend wouldn’t been sad.

Even though I was nervous, having him (my boyfriend, and to an extent, Eeyore) with me made me feel a little better. It would’ve been terrible having to wait in the surgery center alone.

But that’s why I was fretting about Valentine’s Day (which went well!!) He’s just a nice guy.

And in case you were wondering, the polyp was benign. However, I’m still having some pelvic pain three weeks later…going to get that checked next week.

Exercise Routine

Everyday Health

Since the coronavirus pandemic last March (!!) I’ve been exercising more. And since I had to stay home (and am still at home), I had no excuse not to turn on YouTube and get moving. I feel healthier after I finish a session and mentally my mind is calmer.

So, what is my routine? Here it is.


-Strength training
-Cardio (a walk outside)


-Strength training
-Cardio (a walk outside)


Saturday and Sunday

It took me a while to get a good routine going, but there you have it. It works for me now, but I’ll need to modify this when I begin working.

And in case you were wondering what YouTube channels I use…

Bowflex, which is great for short, targeted exercise like three-minute standing abs workout.
POPSUGAR Fitness, for 30 minute cardio and strength routines.
Walk at Home, for easy cardio, by just walking and other exercises thrown in.
Yoga with Adriene, this is reserved for night time.

(In addition to my routine above, I’m doing the 30-Day Squat Challenge from Shape Magazine because, I want to. I’m on Day 18!)

Have you been exercising during the pandemic? I’d like to hear what your routine is!


How’s 2021 treating you so far?

I had a long few days, starting with Monday night when I began experiencing a (sinus) headache PLUS a dehydration headache.

I thought that I’d be fine the next morning, and I was right, at least for the latter. My sinuses were still acting up and I was getting worried that it was COVID (I’m a worrywart). Oddly, my boyfriend had the same symptoms starting Monday night and went to get tested the next day. Thankfully, his test was negative.

I, however, waited until yesterday to see if my stuffiness and sinuses would get better, but no. I was having post nasal drip that resulted in coughing. So, just to be safe I called my doctors office and asked if they knew where I could get tested. I didn’t want to wait 2-3 days for my results, so I went down to the mobile testing lab which said results would be processed within 3-6 hours.

It was the longest six hours of my life.

I finished the test at 2:30pm, and when 5:30pm came and no email notification about my results, I gave the lab two more hours since it was still early.

No email at 8:30pm.

At that point, I was a little concerned. But, I went to bed and slept well (huh?)

This morning, I received that email…and went to log in to the system to check my results…and it was negative. (Looking at the timestamp, the lab finished processing my test close to 2:00am!!!)


Thank goodness.


Photo via beingtheoutlier.com

I wasted five hours (maybe more) worrying. Not good.

But, it’s during times like that that it really helps to have coping mechanisms ready so you don’t waste away your days wondering, “what if” thoughts. I’m still making these tips a habit, but hopefully you’ll find them useful too the next time you’re waiting for test results, COVID or not.

Distraction: Queue up Netflix and watch a feel good show. Or get off the computer and watch TV. Read. Text someone. Get outside. Since it was night and I was still waiting for the results, I took a shower. There was no way I could repeatedly check my email that way.

Vent: Sometime last night, I texted my boyfriend, saying how hard it was to wait for the results. I briefly mentioned my concern to my dad. I felt better after those interactions and found that I could focus a little easier on something other than my results after letting it out. Getting all of the worrisome thoughts out of your head and onto paper, or telling someone about how you’re feeling will ease your mind.

Re-frame negative thoughts: This is one that I feel lifts my spirits up instantly. Instead of thinking, “What if my test is positive?” re-frame the question as, “What if my test is NOT positive?” Try it. Don’t you feel better already?

Continue to stay safe!! We can get through this!!